A Small Step...Dangling Earrings... :)

For those of you who know me I am a creature of habit and a rule follower. This has lead to many things in life that I realize in my adulthood that I haven't done or seen because I couldn't when I was younger (ie haven't seen "Pretty Woman"). Last night at KOHLs I was shopping with my 30% off of coupon in tow and I was finding some good deals for stuff for Justin (lets be honest that is the only way the guy gets new clothes for himself-I buy them take them home he tries them on-if he likes them we keep them if not I take them back :). I was not enjoying finding clothes for me-I wasn't in the mood-and I still think I am in a state of limbo with this "new" body -although it has been a year and a half it really has only been 7 months-as I nursed buddy for 11 months and my body was NOT one that just lost all the weight from nursing-in fact it held onto about 10 pounds the whole time! And even though I am within 2-3 pounds of my pre-pregnancy weight-which I think is great-it is not exactly the same...so I am still figuring that all out. Needless to say I wandered into the jewelry aisle...there was a bunch on sale and I in that moment realized that I should get myself some fun earrings...Yes at 28 I only have about 2 pair of fun dangling earrings. So I did-I had a ball. On the way home I was thinking about why did I not have them as part of my life...I have always like them on others. It was then I realized that my mom never wore them-she doesn't like them on herself, so not that it was a rule that she made-I just never really was around them in my childhood and therefore carried that into my adulthood. Funny. Random story I know but it made me think about other things that I have carried over from my childhood into my adulthood-I am sure some just as small and others larger-and I would like to spend some time moving on and having fun with the process of still "growing up."

Summer Fun!

We have had quite the summer so far-I can't believe that July is almost over! I got to go to our church's summer conference in the mid-west this year-which was a blast and made me oh so thankful that I don't live there! Yikes that humidity and heat is a nightmare. Then my best friend from college and her husband and baby girl came to visit over the fourth of July. It was so fun to see our two kiddos together! We joke that they should get married-hey moms can dream right?!?! Here are some pictures from the visit:)

Soo much fun!

This summer has also found myself waiting....I still have yet to hear about weather or not I am working next fall. It is up in the air and will probably be for a long time. As I know about myself, in times of change, it is not the change itself that I struggle but rather waiting for the change to happen. It is why I didn't love being engaged and couldn't wait to have my pregnancy be over-I just want to get on with the next step-waiting for the inevitable change has always been difficult. I find myself knowing that I will be sad if the answer is no-and yet so thankful that my identity ultimately is not found in what I do-but rather who loves me. I will keep you posted!